Shaking Like a Leaf…


You may have noticed my absence around here.

We are wading through some very difficult days, and I’ve tried to think of how to write it out and how much to tell, and I just don’t have words yet.

My apologies for being so vague, but we appreciate your grace.

We are choosing to believe that God will use this for our good and for His glory, even though we can’t begin to make sense of it at all. Romans 8 reminds us that He can do just this, and that He is FOR US. Lord, help us walk by faith when we cannot see.

My sweet friend Emily sent me this song last night, and I burst into tears with how fitting the lyrics are right now.

“Hold Me Jesus” – Rich Mullins

Well, sometimes my life 
Just don’t make sense at all 
When the mountains look so big 
And my faith just seems so small

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark 
It’s so hot inside my soul 
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don’t come natural to me 
I’d rather fight You for something 
I don’t really want 
Than to take what You give that I need 
And I’ve beat my head against so many walls 
Now I’m falling down, I’m falling on my knees

So hold me Jesus, ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace…


Thank you for your prayers, and your constant encouragement in our lives, especially during this time when the blisters on our heart are so raw.




39 thoughts on "Shaking Like a Leaf…"

  1. Crystal says:

    I’ve always loved that song. Prayers of guidance and peace to you right now.

  2. Praying and singing with you!

  3. Heather says:

    Lord, I lift Jen up to you. Wrap her arms around her. Give her peace that passes understanding. Help her know You go before her and with her…You surround her and she is safely held. When her mind goes to places of fear and her eyes look at the waters crashing around her, help her to fix her gaze on you to believe she can even walk on water if you desire. Speak truth into her heart, whisper it gently in her ear. Provide in all the ways she needs your provision. Honor her obedience and faithfulness to You. In Jesus name, Amen. (((hugs from Dallas)))

  4. Ashley Pichea says:

    Praying for you, Jen. He’s got you.

  5. You know that I have been praying for you. This song has ministered to me in trying times as well. We are with you, as is He. Peace.

  6. Alicia says:

    Praying for you, Jen!!! And your family.

  7. Elizabeth c says:

    Praying for your family. I also found the song “nothing is wasted” to minister to me in very difficult times.

  8. Jennifer, thank you for sharing this. Praying for you.

  9. ohAmanda says:

    Jen. Love you and won’t stop praying for you.


  10. Amy says:

    Keeping you in prayer.

  11. Chrisgharmon says:

    Praying for you Jen. Whatever is going on, I pray God will give you peace and hope. xoxo

  12. Dianne hands says:

    Prayers for you and your family.

  13. Lisa~ says:

    Love you Jenn! Praying for you daily. <3 Lisa~

  14. Kelli says:

    Jen I am praying for you now. Big cyber hugs coming your way!

  15. Praying, Jenn. I pray that God will give you peace as you get through this and that His glory will be revealed. xo

  16. Malissa B says:

    Praying for you and your family!

  17. Prayers for you and your family and sending you a giant HUG!

  18. mpt says:

    Saying a prayer right now for you. May hope/healing come soon…

  19. Praying for you sweet friend. Whatever the need, no matter how great, you are not alone.

  20. Love you, my sweet friend. I’m praying so much for you. HUGS

  21. Amanda says:

    ((hugs)) I will be praying for you, for peace, guidance and comfort.

  22. teresa says:

    praying for you and your dear family. trusting God to provide grace, strength and courage In these days and peace & hope for your weary hearts. ((((((hugs)))))) and prayers

  23. Melissa says:

    Love, hugs and prayers!

  24. gussy sews says:

    Oh Jen, wrapping you up in a peace that only He can provide. Love to you… cry it out… and don’t keep it bottled up. Praying you have a confidant nearby. XO

  25. Hugs and Prayers through this time.

  26. ERIKA says:

    Casting your care on HIM for HE cares for you

    1Peter 6:7

    Praying for you and your family.
    God bless

    Matthew 18:19

  27. Michele C says:

    I am praying for you and your family.

  28. Sweet Jen, I pray that God will provide everything you need: grace, comfort, wisdom. . . EVERYTHING! God bless you, dear one.

  29. Jen I am praying for you and your family. Praying for peace and clarity for you. Our family has also been going through a fair share of trials. Thank you for sharing this song. Singing it with you.

  30. Dearest Jen, please know that you are surrounded in love and prayers. While I don’t presume to know what you are going through, I do know what it’s like to have something terrible weighing on your heart and not be able to share it openly. I hope sunnier days are just around the corner.

  31. Debbie says:

    Praying for you and your beautiful family. God holds you all in His hand…

  32. sl says:

    Praying for you and your family. Love the song you shared.

  33. Rachel says:

    Praying for you. I’ve been following your blog for years. Praying for peace and God’s favor for you during this time.

  34. Amy-Jo says:

    Prayers for you and your family for guidance and strength for whatever trials you may be going through.

  35. Pam Johnston says:

    Keeping you and your beautiful family in my thoughts and prayers.

  36. Mel says:

    Lifting you up in prayer!

  37. Theresa says:

    Praying for your amazing family, Jen!

  38. Melissa says:

    Praying for you and whatever burdens you are facing right now! He is right there beside you!

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